So, went to my last day of class, got everything done and turned in. Need to fix my self eval and write my faculty evals but DONEDONEDONEDONE!
Last night Lillian had a party for the people in our class, so I went and drove Brittany and Josh. Brittany and I hung out and snuggled on the couch (inside) for a while, watching everyone move around and interact and drink. I had a sip of red wine and it was ok... but still. Alcohol is not my favorite. The cupcakes Brittany made, on the other hand, were FANTASTIC. Hung out, talked with people, went outside to the othercouch, hung out and talked. Came back inside and apparently I'm flexible? Or maybe its just that I don't mind being flexible around other people. Interesting conversations were had, and then drove Josh and Brittany home, got into my room and crashed.
On the subject of Daniel... I honestly don't care right now. I'm mad at him for hurting me, and for taking away my sense of safety, but I don't care about him. He hasn't taken the time, or doesn't realize he should apologize, and I am done wasting my time on him. I do need to talk to him to explain what will happen if he ever does that again or hurts Alex or Ari, but I am not going to seek him out.
On to any other note than that... I can feel myself detaching from everything again, and I'm not sure why. Or I know why but don't know how to stop it. Feels like olderMe is coming in and saying "Isn't that cuuuute? Now, lets move on because we have been there now, and we know that isn't something you want or need." And in some ways, I agree. And in others... I wish I could just live through this all once, without the feeling that I have done this before, and without the olderMe. There is a reason I don't sit with my brain without something to focus on... I live my futurelife in my head, and that sucks the fun out of it.
Today we are going clubbing, and then tomorrow my birthday party, and then Sunday my family party, and then Monday I should probably head back here... Eval on Tuesday!
It will be an interesting time.
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I am alone, born alone and die alone. Be with me for awhile?
A few quotes...
"I just feel like people would be so much happier if they just dropped all the pretense and mindgame bullshit in relationships and just went for it, you know? Like 'fuck it, I'm gonna try and make this work.'"
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
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