"Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore
Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry"
"Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look deep down inside
Staring at yourself
Paralyzed
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time
Living in a world so cold
Wasting away
Living in a shell with no soul"
Lyrics that fit with my brain earlier.
Went to class for 2 of the 3 hours, walked back to the apt and considered just laying on the grass and breathing for a while. But, as usual, talked myself out of it for the stupidest reason ever... and the moment is gone. Can't ever get it back.
Remember the post about impulses earlier? Yeah. Still my problem. I really wish I did follow my impulses, or that it was more a part of my personality to do so. I wish I knew how to make it part of my personality without the LOADS of guilt that would come from following my impulses.
"More to see,
Than can ever be seen,
More to do,
Than can ever be done..."
-The Lion King...
Yes. Very true.
"And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They’re the ones that stay the same.
The don’t know me,
'Cause I’m not here."
- From Treasure Planet
So, really wish I could/would act on my impulses in real life. Some of them would be bad, like the ones that say go sleep instead of doing hmwk... Some would be good, like the ones that say I need to go run under the night sky. Some would be interesting... like the ones that say "Fuck this schooling thing, just jump on the next plane out of here and LIVE."
"Being happy isn't having everything in your life be perfect. Maybe it's about stringing together all the little things... making those count for more than the bad stuff."
-Bailey, SOtTP
Questions?
Thoughts?
Comments?
Things for me to think about?
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I am alone, born alone and die alone. Be with me for awhile?
A few quotes...
"I just feel like people would be so much happier if they just dropped all the pretense and mindgame bullshit in relationships and just went for it, you know? Like 'fuck it, I'm gonna try and make this work.'"
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
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i wonder if there is a difference between being impulsive and being spontaneous. impulsive has sort of a negative connotation in some instances.
i have always struggled with when to act on impulse and when not to. and if you reason through it, then is it really impulse? maybe we can't control when to act on impulse at all. if it is truly impulsive then it would be an automatic action, or reaction. i suppose defining words has nothing to do with it, but if you go to the root of it the word "pulse" reminds me of something instantly reactant and uncontrollable.
when we are deciding to act on our "first impulse" or not we tend to weigh consequences.
when we are being spontaneous maybe we don't think so much. to me its like "get up and go" and its almost as if there are no consequences to consider and we are already subconsciously aware of that. however, there are always "consequences" of some sort... things that happen in response to a decision or movement.
things to consider/mull about.
we could try a day where we act on all our impulses so long as they dont have any realized consequences that will affect the next day. so we would have to do everything that wouldnt force the spontaneity on the next day (if that makes sense). i can explain it better later. it would be a baby step, but better then always falling into the same pattern. and i think it would be fun to try.
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