Sooooo... went to my aunts, had cocktails and ate delicious foods and watched RuPaul's Drag Race WHICH IS AMAZING. In a ridiculous way.
Organizing and sorting things here...
Found out that my dad is going to be moving to Portland in November and selling this house. So... I'm going to be homeless in a way.
It's great for him, he REALLY does need it and my sister will be staying here with my grandparents to finish her year of school, then moving down there.
But damn. Leaving this house.
Hell, even CLEANING this house is going to be a nightmare.
And finding places for the things I've accumulated is going to be a bitch.
If I can make myself, I really want to sell or donate most of it (mostly sell though, I'm strapped for cash), and then really be ready for travel. Kind of a way to force myself to get travel-ready in a way...
Once there is no accumulation of items to hold me here,
Why not away?
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My wisdoms are coming out the 22nd, I'm going to have to put my phone under lock and key and give my dad the lock before I go under though.
I know I worry too much about things like this but...
I don't need anyone else to know what goes on in my head. And that phone will be my easiest way to contact people I should leave well enough alone.
Planning on being out of my mind for at least 3 days, if not closer to 5. This leaves me a VERY slim window in which to get ready for FW.
Haven't heard from my contract sponsor... which worries me. I don't know what I will do if he flakes on me.
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My dream from a few nights ago, sadly only the bits I remember now:
Was on a mountain, skiing with some of my family. Fell down a little but mostly just enjoyed myself. Something happened and I got seperated from the group.
-cut to completely new scene-
Some guy I know (can't remember who though), and a random girl and I all in bed, mostly clothed.
--The weird part here being that I don't usually remember such strong physical reactions when in dreams, but the back+neck thing I def. remember. Not sure if I was awake and went back to sleep or was just really shallowly asleep?--
She got pissed and threw me out (not the first time this has happened in a dream, wonder what that says about my psyche), so I wandered out of the hella posh appt/house and into town. (Dress from the Looks Book) Now that I think about it, the town/city I walked in reminds me a lot of Vancouver, just dreamscaped into only 1 story buildings and a bit darker in feel.
I know something happened next, just can't quite put my mental finger on it. Nothing bad, I think... maybe something bad, but not horrible.
Weird dream though.
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More cleaning and organizing and rearranging and mostly putting books onto shelves.
And missing everyone, though admittedly some more than others...
I want this summer to end, but I want to stay here too.
Time goes on.
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I am alone, born alone and die alone. Be with me for awhile?
A few quotes...
"I just feel like people would be so much happier if they just dropped all the pretense and mindgame bullshit in relationships and just went for it, you know? Like 'fuck it, I'm gonna try and make this work.'"
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
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