Reading/Thinking/Babies

I've been reading again.
Approx. 10 books in the last 3 days, and I will probably finish another before I go to bed tonight.

I've been thinking again.

"Now you will feel no rain, for each of you is shelter for the other.
Now you will feel no cold, for each of you will be warmth to each other.
Now there'll be no more loneliness, for each of you will be companion to the other.
Now you're two persons, but there is but one life before you.
Go now into your dwelling to enter into the days of your lives together.
And may your days be good and long in number." -Apache wedding blessing

Why the hell do people wait until funerals to say nice things about the other person? I have never understood that. Personally, I love to hear nice things said about me, and as I am not going to be able to hear them AFTER I AM DEAD, please don't wait until then. It doesn't make sense.

I can't stop thinking.

My step-2nd-cousins came to visit, which was a real head trip.

Messenger isn't working.

My mind just KEEPS GOING.

Thought about children today, cause I read a book about three women who ended up having children. Not sure I want to write about that right now.

I'm really fucking tired of drama. My aunt posits that watching my mom die (real drama) made me less tolerate of fake drama, or human created drama. Need to think of a better word for that, but the general understanding should be good. I think it is true though, but really... I just don't care enough to tell people that their 'drama' is their own damn fault.

Leaving to visit some of my other family tomorrow at 3am. Not going to have internet really while I am there, because they have dialup.

Really missing conversation with people.

Really missing particular people.

Really Missing.