Blog?

So... I'm a bit sleep deprived at this point. Makes it interesting to be in my head.

I dunno how I feel about this blogging thing. I know I've liked it in years past, but... putting bits of me out into the web is a scary/interesting concept. I am going to stick with it for now, even if just as a way to keep a diary on the webs, which is essentially what I am doing. And there is just... so much I want to say/put here about my life, my goals, my plans, but I am so focused on getting through each day.

And fuckit. I refuse to edit this based on who could be reading it. All I ask is that whoever reads this asks questions BEFORE they assume they know what I'm talking about.

Short version, this break could go very well, or I could throw myself at someone who is not interested... or several someones. But I won't, because the masks slip so easily back onto my face as I turn to look at people. I know EXACTLY how to deflect, hide, shield myself so that no one catches a glimpse of what I am. And I hate it.

Goodnight.