I don't even know what to say anymore...
Other than I seem to have stopped blogging, but I still have so much to say.
Currently, it is about being 8 days out and having fleas at my house.
8 days is a friggin long time for me... but after talking with Sh I wonder if I could do longer? At the same time I hesitate to challenge myself because when I do that I tend to sabotage my own attempts.
And when I try for any length of time, I get more and more sensitive to any kind of touch/look/contact, and as someone who is already far more attuned to those things anyway, more is SERIOUS overkill.
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Fleas. Mother. Fucking. Fleas.
Thursday before last we powdered the house, and sprayed the furniture and the curtains, and are doing and have been doing all the laundry...
But still, fleas?
I already have enough issues with germs! At least they don't leave visible bites that itch, and then that make me obsess that any little thing on my skin that is freaking out could be a bite... Cause with my skin, that is a LOT of freaking out.
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On the other hand... bleh. Other hands whateves.
I've been very bad at writing in this, and then when I get the urge to I tend not to be near a computer.
Went and visited Kels at college with Si, and loved seeing her again. Didn't love the other people at the college that we met, though some were ok. Was judged extremely quickly. Went to the Mission district and LOVED IT. Will go back someday and spend even more time there.
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As of today, 9 days since I've slept in a bed/room by myself. I like sleeping with people sometimes, but I also sincerely value the joy of a room to myself. On the other hand, it tests me.
On the furthest thought-train...
What if it is time that I am tested?
Hedonist: someone motivated by desires for sensual pleasures
Hedonism: the pursuit of pleasure as a matter of ethical principle
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Someday. Someday. Not someday.
To. Day.
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I am alone, born alone and die alone. Be with me for awhile?
A few quotes...
"I just feel like people would be so much happier if they just dropped all the pretense and mindgame bullshit in relationships and just went for it, you know? Like 'fuck it, I'm gonna try and make this work.'"
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
-Marten, Questionable Content
"Before the Big Bang, before matter, energy, velocity, there existed a single immeasurable state called yearning. This is the special force that on the day before there were days, obliterated nothing into everything. It is the unseen strings tying planets to stars. It's the maddening want we feel from first breath to last light."
- Mary, In Plain Sight
"[We] once again toast the palpable color, form and grace with which we stand up and dance against the night."
-MSN Movie Review
"Everything is Awesome.
Fundamentally."
- Bickford Shmeckler "Bickford Shmeckler's Cool Ideas"
"The rules of nature,they can only happen, and the rules of life, you can only do. They're different, Nature & Life."
-American Elf
"I felt like I was looking over the edge of the world. And it was a moment when all was right with the world: The music was all around and inside us... I had never felt in my whole life like I did then: Zen. Suddenly the Miss America wish for world peace seemed brilliant. Maybe if enough people made that wish we could do huge things, make things happen just from our thoughts and good intentions and all be shiny happy people. And this much was clear now: It was no passive homogenous creature, identity, but rather diversity, a thrashing, grinding, and all-out dirty dancing together. It moved and it grooved and it might even sleep with you before marriage. You were the dancer and the dance, and you could shape yourself through a riff, or a shrug, or an on-the-back spin, adapt to new rhythms without losing a sense of harmony with yourself. And harmony, that was no static thing either, but many different parts coming together to sing the same song.
And the beat, well. The beat you had to follow was your own heart." Born Confused by Tanuja Desai Hidier
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